Yesterday we went back, the first time in a long time. We had wanted to go back to our gym before I do my big storytime there tomorrow. So we went. I stretched more than my usual none. I had my workout playlist going on my iPod. I was totally ready to get my gym back on. But my body wouldn't let me overdue it. I barely worked out and my whole body was sweating like a pig. My legs were wobbly the whole day and I just covered it up and tried to pretend like I wasn't in pain. I was ashamed of myself and ashamed of my body. I used to be a contender. Now my body sucks.
We went back tonight. I got better, only a little bit. Slow going for me but I swear to god I'm going to get my goddamn life back!