When Kenton, AKA the "Golden Age" Captain Book, had his last day and his last storytime as Captain Book, he hung up his mask on the storytime sign. I don't even think he thought about it. He just hung it up there and left. I saw it hanging there and it reminded me of when Superman died, that drawing of his cape flapping in the wind. So I taped it there and now there it stays as a reminder of the original Captain Book.
My wife is leaving again, leaving tomorrow morning for about four days. It comes at a rather rough time for me. I love my wife and I love my kids and I love my job and all that but deep down inside I really fucking hate myself and I don't know why. This is one of the reasons, the main one really, why I think I'm bipolar or manic depressive because this is how I've felt about myself for a LONG time but within the last ten months its really come up to the surface. I hate myself and think I should be punished. I'm in a "drink to get fucked up" sort of mood but I've been sober for well over three months, so drinking is out. I'm just a bit fragile right now and the last thing I need is time to myself.
Oh well. Wish me luck.