I'm having problems.
When you look at me you see my smiling and joking and having fun. But it's all a front. I'm actually having serious emotional problems.
I feel like no one likes me. I feel like everyone hates me and everyone is talking behind my back. I feel like everyone at work hates my guts. I feel like my kids don't like me and my wife can't stand me and my parents ignore me and I don't have any friends.
I feel deeply alone.
I've been cutting myself again.
I hate myself. And I am ashamed that I'm cutting myself again.
Here's some music to go with my post ...
Primus: Over The Falls
John Prine: Day Is Done
Eric Burdon and the Animals: When I Was Young
Weezer: I Want To Be Something
The White Stripes: A Martyr For My Love For You
Stan Fong: Stompin' At 3am
Gonzo: I'm Going to Go Back There Someday
Home Movies: Sunset Theme
Fiona Apple: Sally's Song
Foxboro Hot Tubs: Dark Side Of Night
The Get Up Kids: Overdue
The Beatles: Nowhere Man
The Sprites: I Started A Blog That Nobody Read
The White Stripes: In The Cold Cold Night