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Thursday, January 2, 2003

Way I figure it, I made it through Christmas and New Year's without drinking a single drop and now that I've ran the gauntlet, everything is going to be downhill from here on out, save the occasional drama which seems to revolve around me like my own little galaxy.

MOOD: rock

BACKGROUND: Muted Sifl and Olly and Seether "Disclamer"

Just got a call on my cell phone (which is 916-5482037 by the way, like anyone ever calls my brown ass or reads this blog thing of mine) from Collyne. You remember her? All that drama and violence and tears and fighting between me and her and the husband, the big Him?

Well, the divorce papers are in and they are no longer living together. This woman, this Collyne, this woman I once said I loved, she knows me well. She's tempting me over with a full course home-cooked meal tonight while I watch Smackdown. She knows how to tempt me.

Looks like my brother and his girlfriend have broken up once and for all, which means that they'll be getting back together in two weeks.

As for me, I don't know how to think right now. It's obvious that Collyne is incredibly happy to be away from the big Him and wants to start spending more time with me, maybe pursue a relationship with me again, or maybe just fool around with me, screw around with me, high school relationship of playing tag with no real committment, then break up with me at whim like the last time we seriously pursued something meaningful between us. And I would be remiss if I didn't say that yes I am tempted. I love this woman. I miss being the man in her life, the glimmer in her eyes when she smiles. But I don't know what to do right now, how to act, what to say, and I am deeply unsure what the next step is for me.

Shit, all I know is that once I'm done surfing for porn I'm going to get in my caddy and go buy me some comic books. I have to remain true to myself, above all things. That is my top priority.

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